I’m pregnant! It’s finally actually happened!
Other than bewildered, disbelieving, and, of course, ecstatic – Brendon and I have been staying pretty even keeled so far. Letting it sink in slowly. It’s been so long since I really expected to get pregnant – after those first couple of months, the doubt was increasingly powerful – it’s hard to comprehend that I actually am. So I keep coming back to those three words: I am pregnant! The first day I couldn’t even say them, for fear of breaking the spell or waking up from the dream. A couple of days later, we’re at the point of teasing each other about it. I’m trying to keep any nervousness and worry banished to the corners of my mind.